IT CAN FEEL HEAVY AT TIMES
Tonight I feel the weight of having to take responsibility for myself. Like a warrior having to put her armor back on. Keep fighting against my doubts and fears. Keep training. Building strength. To stand on my two feet. Trusting my own judgement. My inner child is panicking. It is so much easier to follow someone else’s voice. Do what they say. Be a good student. So much safer to not question anything. Why challenging their opinion? Why taking a different path? What if they were right? What if they know better?
Well, you know what little one? If you don’t go and look by yourself, you’ll never know the answer to these questions. And besides, there is no right or wrong. I know you’re scared. I know it has always been your strategy. To please and follow someone else’s plan. In order to receive their love and validation. But I’m right here with you and I’m not going anywhere. And I believe in you. I know you’re strong and you can do anything. Let me give you the unconditional love and the recognition you so deeply desire. Can you see how much freedom you will have if you rely on your own love supply?
I know it can feel heavy at times. Being your own teacher. Your own friend. Your own mother, your own father. But it doesn’t have to be. It’s only a matter of restructuring the system currently in place. Trust me little one. Keep rewiring.
You know best what’s good for you. You are the one who can hear the whispers of your soul. You have nothing to prove and you can never fail.
